..so..you're leaving..? Realy leaving this time.. Why..? Ah I know.. It's because you hate me.. Finally I made it. I made you hate me. I should be happy right..? Yes. I'm pushing away everyone around me in real life. Because I know I don't deserve to be with anyone. I have a complicated life. Weird routines. And most of people think I'm strange. People loves my mask. They adore it. But I know they will hate the real me. I don't know you would do the same or not..but I don't want to risk it. So now you're gone. This should be my win right? But why can I stop this tears..? It stings. My heart. I want to scream out your name and ask you to come back. But I know it would be wrong. Because even we're ended up together we can go anywhere.. It's all would go to waste. Our relationship. Our chats. And our memories.. It hurts so much and it feels like I can just disappear with it. But it's all meant to disappear since the beginning. I know. I just using you. I used you to be my imaginary friend..that would stay by my side forever. I used you to be someone that I can talk to.. Sharing daily life stories. You were realy good in jokes so I used you to make me laugh when I was sad. You were realy good in socialize with people. So I used you as someone who always cheered me up when I got socialize awkward. You were so childish and you called me as 'big sis' everytime. So I used you as my imaginary lil brother that I can play family with. But lately the line between family or crush wasn't clear anymore haha.. I used you a lot.. I'm sorry.. Now I think I got what I deserve. I will keep this pain in my heart forever. I won't be able to erase our memories. Even if this world end you would still be here in me. I will always praying for you. Let's meet again in our dreams.